4.4.16.

So when I got home from work today I watched an episode of Chicago med to let my brain not have to think for a while. There was a character who tried to commit suicide, he stepped in front of a car but when he was in the ER he said he wasn't paying attention and just stepped right in front of it by accident but the psychiatrist saw through it and put him on suicide watch and wouldn't let him leave the hospital. The guy was adamant that he wasn't depressed until finally be broke down and admitted it. It was just so real. It hit home. I want help, I want someone to see through me.